This fall, I decided to go to England to visit my friends. They are currently moving around the UK, but they’ll return to their home country New Zealand in November. Since they are travelers, I don’t know when I’ll be able to meet them again, so I wanna meet them now. And at the same time, one of my favorite pianist, Nobuyuki Tsujii, will have a concert in England, so I definitely want to go to his performance. I’ll plan where else to go later. Can’t wait!
About five years ago, I realized that I have the characteristics of HSP (Highly Sensitive Person). As you can read, who is a person with a delicate and highly sensitive temperament. There are various types of HSP, but I don’t dare to check which type I am. When I was younger, by this temperament, I was easy to be hurt, and aggressive in order to protect myself. As I’ve gotten older, I’ve had a lot of different experiences, and I’ve become less easily hurt by trifles, and I’ve become a more soft person lol. Mentally I’ve become tougher, but I have a weak point that I get tired easily physically. Seems that this is because the five senses are overdeveloped and the brain constantly receives and processes various information, so the fatigue of the brain appears as physical fatigue. When I was working at my previous job, I was suddenly attacked by a strong sleepiness and often fell asleep and was warned by my boss and colleagues. I think this wasn’t because my motivation for work was low, but because I was tired due to HSP. Because my current job is so much fun and I’m so motivated, but I still get strong sleepy. Also, when I’m having too much fun meeting people, my brain wakes up due to the overload of information and the quality of my sleep declines (the next day I’m sleepy all day.) Probably I get tired easily for the rest of my life due to the structure of my brain. The reason why I didn’t talk about this publicly until now is because I thought that HSP was my weak point. But i changed my mind that it’s my advantage. That’s because I get more information from my eyes than other people, and I can perceive things with my own unique sensibility, so I can express it as my one and only art. And it’s very encouraging that there are people who like my art. Through my experience at this solo exhibition, I was able to take pride in my unique sensibilities:)
Today I received part of the payment for the painting. I’m really happy to sell my paintings! And seems that I can exhibit next year again. The owner of the cafe is a super nice person and I truly consider myself lucky to have known her. The customers who come to her shop are all amazing people, and there were many wonderful encounters through this place. I wanna continue to cherish the relationships with everyone I met there😊
My solo exhibition at the cafe, which I had been exhibiting for a very long time, ended yesterday, and I am happy to say that the painting sold. The reason why I started studying English in earnest was because when I started learning Japanese painting, I vaguely dreamed of exhibiting and selling my works overseas. I was able to achieve that goal this time. Recently, I’ve been creating art that is conscious of Japanese style, and although it’s a Japanese painting, it also incorporates elements of traditional crafts. It’s a fusion of homage to a respecting Japanese traditional craftsman and the originality of my art. My current goal is to spread this art that combines Japanese culture with a positive message to the world. It’s a magnificent goal somehow, but I’ll do my best.
The other day, when I came back to my apartment from supermarket, something was wriggling in the passage of the courtyard, so I avoided it and looked closely, and there was a snail crawling. Also, I was surprised to see another one in the sandbox for children there. They may usually live in the surrounding bushes, but for me, it was heartwarming to meet snails in the city 🙂
Just now I’m making new work themed 4 major elements. This time, I draw pictures on both sides of a rectangular board of about 25x100cm. This material is a bargain board sold at a nearby home center by chance. One side has a fire theme and the other side has a water theme. The earth and wind theme will be made next. I still don’t have a clear answer as to why I chose to express these elements, because I always get inspiration suddenly. I mostly get the answer after the work is completed. Anyways, I thought it would be wonderful if I could have a humanity such as a passion like fire, a purity like water, a warmth like the earth, and a freedom like the wind.
Apparently, I caught a summer cold (?). Two days ago, I ate rice that was about to spoil and my belly got sick, I got a slight fever from yesterday. The smell of rice was no problem but the taste of it was not good after cooking…but I was so hungry at that time and it was troublesome to cook again, so I ate it all while feeling bad tastes. It’s better to not to eat rotten food lol. I’ll be careful from now on. (P.S. I got fine after watching my recent favorite performance “Wiggle Wine” while dancing together:))
The cubed work “four seasons series” was all completed. This work expresses the beauty of changes in flora and fauna as the seasons change, as well as changes in the colors of the sea, sky, and nature. Nature always reminds us of the beauty of this world. Nowadays, many incidents that make us pessimistic happen and shock our hearts. At such times, the beauty of nature and beautiful things such as music and art heals our heart. And I feel that trivial things that can not be visualized such as people’s kindness and virtues actually save us a lot. What I can do is express beauty through art, so if people who see my art will feel a little happiness, I’d be so happy😊
My sharemates, who were attending an artist-in-residence in Berlin two years ago, returned to Berlin from London yesterday. I’ll meet them for the first time in two years. Really looking forward to seeing them, super!!
The solo exhibition currently being held at the cafe is likely to end at the end of July. I was very happy to be able to exhibit it for almost half a year. The schedule for the next exhibition is undecided, but I’d be happy if something was decided. Few days ago, I started to make a new cubed work “Autumn”. This time I’ll record the work process in videos and photos. At first glance, seems that it doesn’t look like a painting because it’s too detailed, so I think it would be better to shoot it. I decided its design by myself , but it’s a work that takes a lot of time to make, how hard it is… but it’s also fun:)