I feel pain for my both back teeth somehow, probably I do a bruxism while sleeping, not tooth decay. By all means, I feel stressed by current life and situation. Especially I’m in foreign country by myself. I should pursue my favorite things in order to feel relaxing more.
The trigger why I changed my painting style from illustration to Japanese painting is the death of my love cat. When I’ve been suffering from pet loss due to deep sadness, I was healed by many big sized paintings I met in Spain. At that time, I strongly thought I wanna be a fine art painter who can heal observers depressing like me. After going back to Japan I was drawn to a texture of Japanese painting at exhibition I went there by chance. Now I resume painting illustrations again, but my underlying beliefs is healing for people remain the same. If I can do the people suffered from current anxiety through my works, I’d be happy. Hope we’ll be able to exhibit our pieces of art ASAP🤲
今日からギターの練習始めました。シェアメイトからの借り物です。彼女はめちゃ上手！ピアノはギャラリーにあるので毎日は弾きにくい(徒歩30分)けどギターはいつでも弾けます^ ^私の大好きなBump of chicken のギターナンバー’everlasting lie’をマスターしたい。勿論弾き語りで。初心者なのに難しい曲に挑戦してるけど頑張る💪目標はブライアンメイ笑
From today I started playing a guitar which I rent from my share mate who’s guitar expert. It can allow me to play everyday compared with piano there’s in gallery(30 minutes by walking). I wanna master a guitar number ‘everlasting lie’ by BUMP OF CHICKEN I love, while singing , of course:) I try to play difficult song despite a beginner, do my best! My target level is Brian May :p
The market economy has been damaged by the stagnation of economic activity caused by this virus problem, and the anxiety for people. In my opinion, I think that a market-based economy with a lot of instability is reaching its limits. I’ve always wondered where the ultimate goal for the society of competition principle and the materialism are. My ideal one is a recycling society. There are many small circles in a large circle, and the economy runs in each circle. It is said that growth is stagnant in a recycling-based society, but I think it will grow spirally. And also definition of growth would be changed. However, people may not be able to stay being in the circle unless they give up certain degree of possession greed. I’m not good at economics, and it is not possible to build a concrete social system so it can only be said in an abstract way. It’s a good time to change the social system seriously, anyways.
I joined online drawing session held by drawing organizer and one of the students. What a wonderful idea! These days making works was suspended because I couldn’t get inspiration from this situation I hardly go out. But my creativity was inspired by this session. Recently I was like a living dead because I couldn’t do creative activities, but seems like I’m finally breathing 🙂
I’m considering about virus. In this type of parasite, when the number of infected people reaches a certain number, they become saturated and infectors decreases. One of the reason is that when the all host is killed, the parasite itself can’t survive, so the infectivity is suppressed. I wonder why they without thought function can make that judgment. And I guess that the difference of mortality in each country or district might be related to vaccination given during childhood or something. Anyways, I hope it’ll be elucidated and utilized in vaccine development in the future.
I need a new target because all works for group exhibition finished. I expect to join an art event in May at Spain but not sure it’ll be held or not, so i lost my motivation to make new painting. I have nothing to do, I feel spend everyday in vain. To be honest now I get homesick just a little bit, but I try to find something what I can do here in Berlin.
This morning, it was decided that group exhibition is postponed until maybe May and my extension of stay at least 3 months probably. I just contacted the Schengen visa authority. I’ve been feeling massive fatigue against rapid change of circumstances, so went to practice the piano which is my tranquilizer( btw using a rental bike to avoid the contact with people). While playing I organized my mind that I should accept this situation as my destiny. I’m not sure I’ll make extra painting or get a job in three months, but I’ll try to think positively.
Invitation card for our group exhibition was completed. My work is used for front page, I’m happy:) However, now our organizer is thinking whether exhibition is postponed or not. In case of postpone, I’ll extend the stay in Germany using a special extension visa. The period is undecided. I can’t say anything clearly because it’s hard to predict something even the near future. Having a impression that situation is getting worse rapidly because I tend to be late in understanding the circumstances due to no tv&pc there. I just only have a complicated feeling, what’s a tricky status! 🙁 If it’s decided to extend, I might buy a secondhand pc.